While busily preparing dinner few months ago, I commented to a friend on the phone that I was, "just worn out." It had been a long day that began too early and I was trudging grudgingly through what remained to be done before bed time. A few minutes later, I noticed Chloe, my 8 year old, in a creative frenzy with paper, markers, glitter. . . (she gets that from her artist father, my creative frenzy looks like dessert). I was commanded not to look. She next requested help from a sibling to drag a card table upstairs. A few minutes later she began squirreling away with dishes from my kitchen. I had a pretty good idea of where this was going; my 8 year old is an incurable romantic. (The only one in our house, I might add.) I, not being quite as romantic in my nature, was thinking of the work involved in cleaning up her scheme, but I digress.
By the time my husband got home I had dinner ready (can you hear the heavenly angels singing? They do that when I can manage to have dinner ready at dinner time. They don't sing much.) I called everyone to dinner and Chloe, coming out of her skin with giddiness and fancied up in a dress by this point, said, "I have a surprise for you and Dad!" Really? A surprise? What could it be?? She paraded us upstairs to my room. (My husband sleeps there too when he's good). A note greeted us at our door:
In our frenzied world, there is a deep seated fear of not enough. I am not enough. My house is not nice enough, I am not successful enough, smart enough, talented enough. MY ROOM IS NOT CLEAN ENOUGH! Lynne Twist hit the nail on the head when she wrote, "Our first waking thought of the day is ' I didn't get enough sleep.' the next one is 'I don't have enough time.' Whether true or not, that thought of not enough occurs to us automatically before we even think to question or examine it." Enough for what? To be happy? To have love and meaningful relationships?
|Keeping it real, although its embarrassing. You can only see half of it, thank goodness.|
|I do remember! He is handsome! But his wife looks tired.|